Val! (loupguru) wrote,
Val!
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They want you.... the ball is rolling..... they want you.

We have a month to go... If we were going to go only three months.... We have one more month...
And I know I got a little crazy last week - the first week of the new job was fun and exciting... the second week was unnerving because I didn't know if I would work 'only some weeks' or what have you... I was depressed or disgruntled most evenings... it was tiring and trying for us both, I know....
And Friday I was a mess.... I was, in retrospect, hormonal and coming down with a head cold.
The weekend was erratic but dotted with parts that were not just good but very-good.
With potential for creative projects...
for art... for us...
Sure there were some stupid ideas, some things we think about, discuss, and realize we will readily cast off...
but we are us.. you and me. a couple.
(*A couple-a-what?*)


The ball rolling?
It's early July here in Chicago, the "windy city" is brash with humidity...
I called London this morning... I made people laugh and babble in shocked Britishisms - because who knows how to find the (nonexistent) agent  to someone who is now a member of the royal family?
But it's funny... and it made me happy - to make people laugh - to talk to people so far away.... Knowing I have a friend that lives there, that I miss.
I called Italy too, but that was just one call that lead to nothing.
I did this for a couple hours, took a break, then tried a little more, then sent emails to the best of my ability.
Then I started in again on the book I want to write, the book I've given myself "This month and maybe a little more" to finish.... The book about The Men I dated in New York.... It seemed a good 'summer read' though summer will most likely be over when I'm done...
It's just a read.  I just hope it is an entertaining read. I hope it sells. I hope I get it done, get it checked, revised, and lauded by those loved ones I love that already found the intro interesting....

I hope they like the whole of it, that it goes on line, that it spreads slowly at first, by word of mouth, spreads again, by digital discourse, that it spreads soon like wildfire across the internet, across the world, that it might even be read in book clubs, that it might be written of, in the New York Times, in the Tribune.... That it might sell....
and I might say to you, "Look what I've done... I've sold a million copies of my light reading book... The ball was rolling for me too... so I could come and get you.... so you could stay here with me... so we could put all our stuff in storage and travel... so we could see how true it is - that it isn't so hard to REALLY MAKE Something. I really made something! And we can do all the other projects too!"
The ball is rolling, and they want you....
And I love you....
and I hate change....
-Val!
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